sleeping update

i decided to call the ped and ask him about our new sleeping situation. he told me that he would prefer grayson was not sleeping that way but there was nothing we could safely do to stop him (again, contemplating duck tape). so that sucks. 


i am a cronic worrier. grayson had a low birth weight and he's a male, so there are two strikes against him already. we put him to bed last night and when i went up he was on his belly with his face in the mattress. no freakin way was i letting him sleep that way. 


so up came the carseat. he slept in it on the floor next to my bed. he was not happy about the situation though, he kept letting out these annoyed cries through the night and i would have to rock him back to sleep. needless to say. i am tired today. 


we have an anglecare monitor with a sensor but we can't figure out how to use it. (ps mark this is your reminder to call them today!) if it was working properly i would feel a whole lot better but until it is clearly no one will be sleeping. 

chef mama

i've decided i need to get back to cooking. i used to do it all the time, then i got pregnant and i couldn't go in my kitchen because just the smell made me want to puke. so i stopped. 

i miss it though. my favorite part is grabbing everything i have out of my cabinets and deciding what goes well together. the problem is i just kind of "go" with it so i have a hard time recreating it if it turns out awesome. 

between working and taking care of grayson it doesn't leave me a whole lot of time at night to whip something up but my goal is to at least once a week get back to it. and maybe finally take one of those classes i've been wanting to take.


who knows. 

will i ever sleep again?

since we've moved grayson into his room he's started sleeping though the night. (alle-freakin-luia) i of course still get up around 4 every night instinctively and while i'm up i figure i might as well check on him. 

i usually find him sleeping nicely in his crib. no problems. not last night. 

he always slept on his back. the last couple nights he's been sleeping on his side. last night he was on his stomach! (cue heart attack!) every article, ever nurse and doctor, every everyone warns you. 

do. not. let. your. child. sleep. on. their. stomach. 

so i rolled him onto his back, and kept my hand on his shoulder until he relaxed. i would lay back in bed and like a nut i felt the need to get up and check again. he was on his stomach. every time! 

i sat there an contemplated for the longest time what i could do to get him to sleep on his back and not his stomach. if he knew how to roll from his stomach to his back i wouldn't worry as much but he doesn't. he only knows how to roll from his back to his stomach (which apparently is opposite of the way babies learn?). 

i couldn't get him to cooperate so i pretty much was up the rest of the night checking on him and rolling him back onto his stomach. 

i honestly have no idea what to do. is it okay. is it not. do i duck tape the child to his crib to get him to lay flat!?

so much for getting more sleep.

our weekend in photos

have i mentioned i am horrible at pumpkin carving...?

after two attempts i gave up on my "G" and it turned into this

i know what you're thinking- wow, that G turned into one awesome haunted house! sorry to disappoint but look beyond that pumpkin. yes, see that horrible looking jack-o-lantern. that would be mine. 

but the fun goes on...

wasn't me.

yes we are "those" type of people, the ones who dress up their dogs.

all that fun made for one very tired dragon.

happy weekend all!

bumbos are for...sleeping?

i decided to bring grayson's bumbo out to breakfast with us the other morning. 

he was playing in it then slowly he started to slump down and in seconds he was asleep. 

must be nice to be able to sleep anywhere like that. 

he wants to be on top

won't you vote for us? grayson wants to be gap's newest baby model. 

he has four submissions

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can you really say no to that face?

thanks so much!

just stopping by to say hello.

big boy bed!

okay not a big boy bed. his crib.


sunday night we made the transition from him sleeping in our room with us to him sleeping in his crib. in his room. alone! 


he could care less, he is happy to sleep anywhere. i was the sad one. 


when he came home from the hospital i decided with him getting up so frequent, and me being nervous about the whole new baby thing, sleeping in our room was best. 


being in our bed was out of the question. i was afraid we would roll onto him or one of the dogs would suffocate him but sleeping against his face. instead he was in a cradle next to me. he was easy to get to and i could lay my hand on his chest through the night to make sure he was okay. 


i said "just till he's three months"(i don't know where i came up with that number). 


then three months came and i realized he is getting too big for his cradle and that we should probably start using his room. 


we seriously spent over an hour trying to figure out his monitor. it was so frustrating. once we got it to work, and tested it a million times, i felt a little better about him leaving us. he did awesome the first night. he slept till 4. i got up a couple times to check on him though. i heard him let out a cry at one point and i literally became superwoman. i flew out of bed and ran into his room. (he never ever cries when he wakes up at night) he was sounds asleep though so he must have been crying in his sleep about something. i surprised myself at how fast i was out of that bed though. 


the transition really has not been bad. the first night was tough for me but after that i was okay. it's actually nice because i can go in his room, sit in the rocker and not have to worry about waking up mark. it's just him and i. i do miss being able to open my eyes and see him sleeping next to me though. 

nakie baby!

something feels different

omg im naked! yes!!!! this is the best.

wait. you're not going to put nakie pictures of me on your blog are you mom?

bad mommy morning

i had a bad mommy morning. 

it really drives me nuts when other moms pretend like they always have it together, and they never experience a morning where both them, the baby (and sometimes the dogs!) are all screaming and crying. really? i am the only one? i doubt it. 

i can usually cope with the no sleeping thing. breastfeeding is tough. grayson eats a lot, and often. even if mark were to get up with him i would still need to be up pumping so there is no point in that. some nights he is great, other nights not so much.

last night i got no sleep. 

and for some reason grayson was off this morning. he usually sleeps till 745, leaving me enough time to get myself showered and ready to walk out the door by 8. 

not this morning. 

he was awake, and hungry, and wanting to be held. so i was trying to take care of him, and me, AND the dogs. maybe i could have dealt with it on another morning, but not this morning. not when i had been up all night either feeding or rocking the baby. 

he was crying, i was crying, the dogs were crying. okay not crying, but barking. it was a madhouse. 

then i tried to decapitate myself with the car door. i was shutting it and without thinking stuck my head in to grab something. whacked myself with the door. 

it was just one of those days. 

poor grayson had to feed himself

whatever works right?

i was trying to keep it together but the song on the radio was singing lyrics about running away so i was starting to loose it again. then i looked in my rear view mirror. 

do you see what i see?

it made me feel so much better. 

it was still a bad mommy morning though. 

i need a bit of talent

can someone please teach me to knit so i can make these adorable stinkin hats that i found off etsy!? 

(i know i could just buy them but i don't have $100 to drop on hats! plus if i knew how i could make lots and lots and lots)

i love them!

keep us out there

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duffields

our weekend at duffields. someone took my normally happy baby and replaced him with a very kanky one! it was probably because it was such a windy day. i guess he hates the wind as much as his mama. 

started out with a good cup of wawa coffee as all mornings should*

i'm cranky. you can't make me look at the camera! i won't do it. 

okay fine but i won't smile for you.

get this thing away from me. 

i hate pumpkins mom!!!!!

and that was our trip to duffields!

*of course i did not give my child coffee. he was just gnawing on the lid. 

a promise

that i will STOP using my cell phone to take all my pictures of baby grayson. i have over 1000 photos of him on my phone. i need to pick up a camera!


this is my promise. hold me to it!

my cooking buddy

hey good lookin

i am a bit bias but i do think he just might be the world's most adorable thing!

christmas

i'm thinking we have our christmas card outfits picked out...!

nerds.

yard sale!

this weekend we got rid of a bunch of our crap, simply to go buy more new crap! 

when i cleaned out the attic/basement/garage i made a big yard sale pile. stuff that i've had forever and clearly do not use/i had no idea i owned. 

we made a zillon neon signs saying 8am. of course as we were pulling boxes out at 630 people were there, rummaging through. thats okay though because they bought stuff! 

nothing we sold was over $4 yet we brought in a solid $200. looking at all the stuff left though i am still not sure what exactly we sold. unfortunately we still have a few boxes of crap. thats okay though because its less then what we had before! 

we should do this more often. i like getting rid of stuff. my house is filled with way too many things i don't use/need. 

and now for a picture of my #1 salesman. (cannot tell you how many "how much for the baby" jokes we got. lame people. lame).