tomorrow is a bad day

today grayson and i have spent the entire day together doing nothing but snuggling on the couch. 

tomorrow is a very sad day. 

i go back to work. 

i have been so very lucky that i got to spend three wonderful months with him. i have such a hard time believing that those three months are up. 

it's only temporary though. as of november i will be leaving my job to stay home with grayson full time. i don't want to put grayson in daycare. i think its better for him, but mostly better for me. i do love working, but i love him way more and want to spend as much time with him as i can. fortunately being a designer i have the type of job where i can still take on projects even if i am not in a full time position. and having a certificate to teach i also plan to sub. 

i realize i am so amazingly blessed to be able to do this. there are so many moms who don't have that option.

october will be a very difficult month though. he is in wonderful hands so at least i won't have to spend my day worried about him. he will spend the month with family. which is great for them because they get to enjoy him. i will be devastated though. i've been dreading it. it will be so tough leaving him each morning. 

i just have to remind myself over and over it's only temporary. 

for now though we're spending the day snuggling up on the couch watching the rain. even cherrio is enjoying it!